Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Riding This Roller Coaster

Adoption is a roller coaster! There is no way around it. The highs are "high" and the lows are "low". Today is a low. Our court dossier has been submitted to the judge and he has requested a lot of additional documentation. That means me running around like crazy trying to get it all together and then  having it all notarized and apostilled. Then, sent over to Russia to be translated and then taken to the judge. This all takes TIME. Our current Russian medicals expire on June 7th and now there is no way to get a court date before then. So, we'll have to redo our medicals!

Sometimes it seems like our son is so far away that we'll never get to him. As I was walking up the stairs of our home, to the computer, I stopped to look at the sweet face of our "little man" staring back at me from up on the wall. I just sobbed! I want him in my arms so badly and somedays it seems like he's an eternity away. I know that we'll be united with him in God's perfect time, but this momma's heart just aches. It aches BAD!

I'm clinging to the promise that "we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose" (Romans 8:28).

"His strength is perfect when our strength is gone
He'll carry us when we can't carry on
Raised in his power the weak becomes strong
His strength is perfect
His strength is perfect

We can only know the power that he holds
When we truly see how deep our weakness goes
His strength it must begin
When ours comes to an end
He hears our humble cry and proves again"

"Little man", mommy and daddy are going to get these documents done as fast as we possibly can. We love you more than we ever knew was possible! Just a little bit longer and then you'll never be without your forever family!

1 comment:

  1. Stephanie,
    I know how you feel. I'm sorry. It hurts, but I pray that soon you will be back to see your little man with a successful court decision! Keep the faith!